On a serious note

I honestly don't know what to do about her.
It's almost as if my mind has put up all these constructions for our relationship - and there's all these things that I'm not allowed to feel, but I still do...
And over and above all these constructions I feel like a total fool because of her being with no.2 - and I feel even stupider for getting upset about it.
And what scares me the most is that, even though when we're together if feels good...it doesn't feel right.

I think that I'm no longer emotionally attracted to her...

I don't want to lose her, but the only way to do that is to be with her - and I know I can't do that.

Sleep and perspective is what I need.