Second time lucky??

Go back to Rhodes in two weeks...
Which means leaving her, and going back to the scary long distance relationship we tried before...
Or, more accurately, failed in before...
I guess, as before, only time will tell

Where has the old me gone?

It’s strange, because for some time now, whenever I looked at this page I felt as if a part of me was represented. Yes, this depiction of myself might be a teeny tiny representation of who I actually am, and my random babbling might be more who I think I am, than I actually am…But still…
Since returning home – which basically means slow, unstable internet access – I haven’t really shared many thoughts…
The strange thing is – is now looking at the page it’s almost as if two distinct parts of myself have formed: The blogger, who rants about random things that few people may actually care about… And the other me…
The me that spends hours watching E! Entertainment (wait…that many more hours than the previous me does…)
The me who has no secret private random thoughts…

Yes, I can step out of myself (both selves actually) and see how insanely ridiculous this sounds. I can see that it’s unreasonable to presume that just because I’m not posting my ideas on a arbitrary web page that I simply have none.
But I think it may just be true.

Yes. Without my trusty laptop and much needed spell check I am an empty vessel. OK. Semi-empty. I am, of course filled with the latest information about random celebrities are strangely familiar to me despite doing nothing but pose and party.

It’s sad…but it’s true.
But maybe my frankness will banish overly E! obsessed me, and call the ranter out to play…

It's time...

With the beggining of the year, or in my case, three quaters of the way through January, comes new ideas about life and the better way to live it...
This year, like every other, I have these exceptionally unique ideas...
Like most people I am meant to be on a "new year, new start, this year it will finally happen" diet.
Hmmm.
Ok - so i've slipped up...once...ok...twice...a week...
BUT I really am trying (yes, I know if I was REALLY trying I would be doing)
And gonna fast tommoorow, which is basically a non psycotic way of saying starve. Need to feel hungry...even just a tiny bit because I haven't done that in a very very long time...
Just want to get back down to what i used to be...
Just want to be thin again...

A new year brings new drama

So many thoughts to share...
So much that has happened...
But don't want to rush through it all...
So it will come...
But just slowly...
Just give me time...