Anger and Procrastination...My Two Favorite Emotions...

Friday starts in 10 minutes, and the excitement and joy I had towards this day has died...

I am so angry with her.
It all started with facebook...she refused to add me as her girlfriend

" Oh no! I couldn't possibly do that! What happens if thirty years in the
future I need to be employed by some homophobic pig and he's so lame he checks
up on me and reads me facebook from years and years ago and won't hire me
because I was honest about my sexuality? What then? "

It irritates me so much! And if she could just see past herself and see that maybe there's a possibility that her not wanting me on this lame site makes me feel sad and stupid and as if she's a shamed of me.

It makes me angry!

And then, to try and convince her (her being my girlfriend who is meant to want me to be part of her life) to put me on her page...as a FRIEND, I told her that if she added me that I would tell her this address...
Oh why?

As usual this turned into a huge melodramatic emotionally fueled Scorpio fight...

So ten minutes (actually, about three now) before this big day that actually means a lot to me despite not actually being FOUR years...we're fighting...

And I've spent this whole time playing on this stupid facebook thing, and fighting with her about shit, that I haven't even started my English essay...

But lets be honest - I'll always find a reason to procrastinate.